Expressing My Thoughts


Sometimes I look at life and ponder it's purpose, as does most people.  Then I look around, and I see the surface of what seems to be other's portraying happiness, or content, whichever the case may be. But I question it.  Are they really happy?  Are their smiles facades to avoid prying?  I do not fake smile, I do not shine light into my darkness.  I do not mask my pain.  I wear it, out in the open, for the world to see.

I have been alone my entire life.  Always around people, yet, ultimately alone.  I like to do things my way, yet everyone seems to have an opinion on how my way isn't their way, yet, I didn't hear them volunteer to do it.  I shun their ideas, as I did not ask for their opinions.  These sorts of situations just thickens the wall (mental and emotional) that I have built throughout my lifetime.  

I treat people as I want to be treated, therefore, I do not offer my opinion into their lives, nor do I pry into their situations.  But just because I do not outwardly display concern, does not mean I am not concerned, just means that I care not to express it.  

Where am I going with this post?  Nowhere... just expressing my thoughts.

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